Sweating the small stuff

It amazes me how I have a habit of dwelling on little things. Whenever I find myself freaking out because of all the traffic, I think back to a book I read in middle school, and although I don't remember the contents of this book, I do remeber its title Don't Sweat the Smal Stuff which I find myself doing.. alot.. hopefully I'm not the only one. I find myself getting wrapped up in little things that in the long run should not have stressed me out or occupied my mind for the past 3 days. Anyways that was sort of a pre-curser to what I think about sometimes as the definition of luck. Some people say that I'm lucky cus I win random contests more frequently than an average person, nothing big like the lottery but still more than the ridiculous $1 winnings on a scratch ticket. I on the other hand see myself as extremely unlucky, unlucky to the point when there are times when I believe I was cursed or someone put a hex on me in a previous life. What gives me that notion you ask? Well my ability to lose things is incredible. Jewlery, cell phones, keys, checks, and a lot of times due to ridiculous situations. So what sturred up this paragraph, well it didn't have to do with losing things. Its what has now become the vain of my existence on many days( Me sweating the small stuff once again). Today I was walking to the bus, my time schedule is pretty strict, because I like to be pulling out of my driveway at 9:10, parking by 9:15 and at the bus stop no later than 9:19. That is because according to the bus scheduale its supposed to come at 9:15, never does, and 9:25 which also ends up being 9:35 most of the time. So this morning I was pretty much right on schedule, I was 2 driveways away from the bus stop when I see my bus pulling away, it was 9:19. So this obviously started to stress me out, because if its coming now, another one pobably wont come for another 20 minutes and that throws off my whole commuting schedule, So of course I was pissed, but just as I was about to pull out my phone to find some game to occupy my time I see another bus, and not the bus thats not mine that drives by every other minute, but my bus, this was 2 minutes after the other bus had pulled away, so although I thought it was strange I was super psyched and got on. So not only did I not have to wait, but there was no one on this bus, because everyone had boarded the previous bus. So that made me think what a stroke of luck that was, which usually never happens to me when it comes to public transportation. So I took that as a sign that today is going to be a good day. Weird right? what we let influence our personal definitive decisions on what made our day "good" or "bad". Because just a simple spilling of my coffee all over my white shirt could hurdle me into a bad day. Which leads me back to sweating the small stuff. So I'm not really sure where I'm going with this I guess I report back at the end of the day and we can see if it really did end up being a "good" day un-influenced by the stupid little stuff.

Public Injuries

this isnt my usual blog topic, ill be posting a craftier one later this weekend, because I know Ive been somewhat neglegent of this blog for a while.
Anyways back to my topuic of public injuries.

So this morning i get only the lovely public transit system known as the bus to go to work, and because the bus is never on time, the bus was semi full. The girl in front of me was taking her sweet a$$ time walking down the aisle while the bus was moving, mind you, and she of course takes the last empty row so i quickly turn to sit in the one in front of it, where there was a girl sitting. It was at the top of the step in the higher level of the bus, so i swung around too quickly and WHAM banged my knee on the corner of the seat, wouldnt I thought it would have hurt as much as it did, but I was trying my hardest to stay composed and not scream out profanities cus that really effing hurt, I dont know if I hit a nerver or what, but now once half asleep self was now awake, but me knee felt like it was going to explode, but of course I'm on a bus, its early in the morning and its pretty somber, no one talks so I had to keep my screaming to my insides and wait for what seemed like an hour for my knee to stop throbbing, thankfully I was wearing pants today otherwise it probably would have been worse, I dont have much coordination when it comes to normal things like walking especially before I've had any coffee in the morning. But wow that was horrible, but i think i did a pretty good job at keeping composed even though I really did think I was gonna pass out for second, which is a fear of mine, fainting in public, I've only done it once at a Dr.'s office, but the thought of fainting and comeing to with strangers standing above you freaks me out, especially on a bus, cus I presume I would have fallen out of the seat or something that would most likely cause quite a scene, but thankfully crisis averted. So I wound up with a lovely lump on my knee. But it really made me think how awful it is when you injure your self in front of a bunch of strangers. Anyway I know this is a strange and random post but I thought I would just share the happenings of my morning with whoever reads my blog. I have seen people fall like done and almost onto peoples laps when the bus is moving so I'm just glad I didnt do that (knock on wood). Hopefully the rest of my day is injury free.